Emptiness

My life goes on and on, things building up in my mind, each day is like just an other hour passed, I don't feel anything, nothing lasts longer, happiness or sorrow, light or dark, makes no difference. I am alone when surrounded by so many, I have heard people saying this a lot of times, but feeling it now. Its not that I am adapted to the new place or I miss my old one. I don't miss anything or anyone. Don't know what alludes to me ! I find myself apart from humans, I don t know why I have it. Want to go on a backpack journey around this world, in search of myself, will I ever find myself, where ever I go I have to find it within. ! ! !

Forgot something

Yeah I forgot to mention about my second previous post, as I mentioned on the title, Make Your Own Sunshine, which is also called as MYOS ! Even though I am not in my city, I am obsessed with its news daily, I wont even miss one day, even though its kind of irritating to read it online. I dot read word by word but browse through what is going on and will read what ever interests me. But there is a regular article under the name, talking tree I have seen it before but never initiated to read it but today got struck by it and read it, to my surprise it was interesting, it talks about various prospects of life, and today its about Nirvana, it's the eternal pleasure. Under which stated some of the words by a old spirualist, and his father's words of encouragements, which are MYOS and Be Flexible, If you bend a little, you won't break. Found these really appealing and not even about this, there were also lines about Karma and Kaluga.

Trying the Word to blog

Yeah its not my new invention, but I saw this option before a long time, but dint bother to give it a try, now just had some time to spare even though have a do to list building like a castle. The obstacle is, I never write it down, I always like to keep it in mind, it a mind game to remember a list of stuffs to do. But sometimes it mismanages.

Make Your Own Sunshine !

its been a while since i logged on to write my blog, i have been thinking about lot of things and issues to write about, but when i get the leisure to pen it down, i mean type it, i could remember nothing. Yeah the last day i wrote about was my saturday, i think i can start of how my sunday went of ! As a regular day it started off and while its gona end a sudden surprice, all of my romie's are flustered about what to wear for the occasion which i dont know what. and finally i was informed to gear up, as were to go to an restaurant for a party ! HEL NOO !! was ma answer. And few started to stare with a question and a detest looks ! but i was odered to start up and i was given 120seconds to be on ma shoes. Yeah we headed to the train station and hoped on a train to reach Harris Park, and we were welcomed by one of the host and were guided to a Indian Restaurant, named Billu's ! the fist thing came upto my mind was the movie, is the owner a srk fan?!? did he name after the movie ! It had an open air as well as covered restaurant, as we entered and was told that we got to decide the course and pay in advance, we located a comfortable table and settled down and discussed about the menu. I was offered to choose Dosa, but i wasnt interested in anything, so just asked them to oder as they wish, but insisted, so opted for garlic non. And yeah i have to mention about the so called wait staff, they were like models, was wondering why are they even here, sounds sunny aint it. i could possibily imagine myself, maybe they too wanted to be independant like me. i mean really independant, you dont depend on anyone for anything. After a while, our non's were placed on our table, yeah it was good for the standards here, it was a bit over roasted, and my palate sence was too low i think i couldnt find any difference bwtween malai koftha and panner chillie masala, and yeah the vegetable balls in the koftha were a real challenge to eat. after a while a bowl of vegetable biriyani arrived and tired that, it was pretty tasty. and a mango yogurt milkshake, the only thing i enjoyed. left the restaurant to another friends house it was almost 15 past 11, and they were having few conversations, and i was siting next to a tc and watching some movie which was going on, found the movie interesting, it was based on the Kargil war and left there to reach home. The following day being monday, many feel lazy, but i don feel anything, all days are just normal days, nothing called a special day or a obscure day for me, all are the same. Actually i have no idea what happened on Monday, the memories of that just got erased or may be burried deep in my mind. but yesterday after my college and went for an interview, just among 800 of other whi attended it, we were just asked to fill up a pile of questions and submited and left there to browse some of the shops, hunted for a hungry jacks and bagged some burgers and chips to munch in the train, not for me but for my maites. And today, dont know why suddenly got a strange interest in my studies and offered myself my faculty to do the full assingment even though she asked only for 30% of it. i just wanted to improve my standards, and the thirst to learn classic English is growning in me, even though i feel sleepy when i start reading such kind of books.

City Trip

As the day started off....just though it gona be a another borin and tiring day ! Thank God ! my TL left me and went to the field, so i got to return, instead i went to city for some clicks, to my surprice it was great. i got up at 9.30 for i have to reach thw place my TL told at 10.30, started from home at nealy 10.40 and missed my train, as its a weekend the fequency of the trains are really low, and i hoped on to another train and reached at 11.15. By that time they all have alreayd left, so i waited for them to come until 12. And was thinking where to go, as i already planned to go to city in the evening after fininshing the work so i carried my cam along, so jus started off to the city. first i went to Circular Quay, and started my photography. carried on and on trung to take Harbour Bridge and the opera house in different angles, and just few steps futher lies The Rocks, a classic & modern place, you will get the best cuisine and drinks in sydney here. And yeah after that was thinking to go to sarling harbour but forgot how to go from there., so just poped inyo an visitor centre, there you go you got maps, informations, hot spots for every where in australia, all u got to do is to find wer you are and where you want to go. found that i ahave to reach townhall for darling harbour, so took a train from there and reached townhall. Actually first i started off to the Darling bridge but something attracted me to the park near by, found a huge thai festival gonon ova there.

wow the dance was pretty good ! and their costumes ! after two dance shows, had 3 fight games, thai boxin, pole fighting and another fight i dont really hear the name, but both the boxers are blindfolded and made to fight ! that was also interesting ! and by the time i finish the festival, my cam satrted flashing "00" no memory...omg...was desperate to get get a another memory card., but jus roamed around darling harbour and finished my days trip, started back home it was a sunny day but jus 5mins after i hoped on the train, it started pouring like some one is pouring a bucket of water on ya. by the time i jump from train to the station i got lil wet.,and the funny part is after coming out of the station the rain is over, its sunny again. Had quite a good day. :)

Sell icecream to an Eskimo

hey all, Ah got a break after a long week ! days are goin real fast now, i feel it. i kept thinkin to write the blog but cudnt be online much for this. My classes where going pretty good these days, as we are discussing business in depths, yeah while our faculty was giving some examples of, who a clever business man is, she said this, if your good in your business, you will sell icecream to an eskimo, hahaha ! funny but i am gona try seelin it ! And yeah yesterday found the class too boring andstarted reading some blogs of guys in US from chennai, it was quite funny, as they were talking about their gradual change in their slangs and the system of the people living there, to put their unwanted stuffs on the porches and these students collecting and using them. It happens here too ! most of the people here, even us, if we find something or wnything not usefull, we just keep it on our porch, if someone needs it, will take them, you can find obsolutly fine bed's, refrigirators, ovens, some time tv's and loads of furnitures. Just come and get a empty house you can find what all you need for a home in a month. Most of the practises may be good here, but when you look out for some entertainment, its kin of a dumb place, where people think pub is an entertainment centre and getting drunk is entertaining. Its a holiday today, go to pub gte drunk, office got ova soon, go to pub get drunk...! lol even though the goverment has taken extensive measures to avoid people getting drunk, we can find many of them. OMG if i think my city now, its rockingg !! with a country's 1st multi format gaming zone and with great food, it definetly rocks. Siting and wondering why the time time running so fast, actually i think i am a bit slow for it., i got to learn up to match it. being an holiday today for my uni, was thinking to hangout somewhere before i could think of some thing its already 1 in the clock, i got to be working without pay frm 3 !

My Ambitioin is to have an Ambition

AH ! well quite a few know about my so called ambition, which i consider as my destiny too ! I even forgot the last day i bloged, getting kind of busy these days. Many Interesting stuffs did happen in last couple of days. Saturday a part of city was celebrating Mardi Gras ! worlds biggest gay festival, but i managed to miss it. Sunday was great went to Canada Bay, a golf course, such a wonderfull place, all you can say is WoW ! but took bit of walking though. Especially made to it to take some clicks, but the showers kind of spoiled the mood, feel was romantic but not adivisble having a D90 in hand.
The golf course was so well maintained but found no one playing, people with me managed to find 2 golf balls....They do play ! And across the road there was some park-a-lot, it was visible but with a blurred effect because of the drizzling, and the atmosphere was perfect for a date, but i missed something important for a date, a girl !! then started my way back with motorway, rushing of the cars and thundering harleys and damp roads. Reached home to find a bunch of guys watching criket, got bored thought of taking a nap but got disturbed and woke up and hell yeahh it was birthday of our romie...! so after she came we started off with a chocolate cake and a custard apple cake too....wowwww bet u guys you can never get a better cake in the world !
had a nice appetite and sleep off to find the monday which is waiting to bore me, In the college class was going on, and left there to gloria jean, BULL SHIT that stupid made the oder for black coffee, i clearly stated him for cuppicino with wipped cream that ******* has made an oder for black coffee long with wipped cream yawkk ! is he in his sences ! thank god the coffee maker was wise enought atleast not to add the wipped cream to that and offered to add some milk, added it and got honey with it and was in the train with engine talking about second life...Yeah i got a second life now ! and my name is Mr Runner ! hahaha !

Got Some Time !

Hey people, can find no time to be online even though my hunger to write the blog was high. finally got hand on..now ! so what you looking at, thinking that am gona talk about this bird..noway i dint even ask its name before clicking. Just clicked this in Nikon D90. My days went on so quickly, dint even notice who came across..lol. And yeah went to gloria jean again yesterday and had a lovely cuppicino with wipped cream,...i want more and yeah had our usual chat, me, mick and engine, this time we were mostly talking about our carrier. Finally i have planned to finish my business studies n next 3 or 4years and get into some big uni for doing Networking, i know it sound wired....That is me ! The rest of the day flew as i went to my friends house, was surrounded by laptops fixing them, and i eat idly shambar, i know the dish soounds bored but when you dint eat for 4months and you see it, you will love it, as i did. And today...uhh.....day went on well, Actually i planned to read the book i was reading and suddenly my roomie asked me to get ready for an training. My first job training after coming here. you know it was boring, an indian guy with "wot arrr you doinngg" accent kept saying things which he already said and said it again. We had roleplays to deal with customers. I found it funny as the guy was responding too positively. the climate was so stupit, its so cold and hot, if you get cold stand near the sun for sometime, you will sweat. arrgh! After geting home started off with my camera, and this picture is one of them, you can expect more of them. OMG now i got to eat spinach and i hate it.

Gloria Jean

Its not some ladies apparel tag name, its a coffee bar, where i was siting for more than 2hours today, the day started off asusal got to college and yeah even today i forgot to study..OMG i am forgetting everyday, il better try not to think about it. After hours of browsing and browsing, left the col about 1.30 and my followers mick and engine( its not cae engine, u spell it as En-Ghee-N,its a name ) we all where walking in the wrong way after few mins we realised that we are searching for a coffee shop finally landed in gloria coffee, and decided to take a table on the pave, as engine ensures his smoke to be continued and mike cursing him for it, grabbed a coffee, fuckin $7 argh ! and engine with his black and mike was forced a coke. We just started off with some genral topics talking about the city and different countries, what do you expect a hindu, a musilim and a christian sitting together and talk ! We talked about army and i was expecting a WW 3. Engine basically from turkey as served in army, we were talking about his experience and politics in his place and i am sure you dont ant to hear about it. He was telling about how people use to recognise turish people, as a scaring object...., eat it or the turkish wil come.....dont go outside..the turkish will come....hahahaha... and he also told a true story which happened in medival i think so i am not sure about the dates, when a war raised between turkey and china, they planned for a fight the next day, the places were fixed, soldiers all camped near their respective borders. the sun was dawn the night before the fight the chinnese sent a spy to check the camps of turkish for how they are preparing,(this is a time, when Brushing teeth is unknown in many countries, atleast china) the spy found people using some kind of stick and moving in and out of thier mouth., the chinnese thought the turkish gona eat them tommorrow in the battle, so they are prctising with wood, and the day was dawn no chinnese was found in the battlefield. i dont know wether you laughhed i laughted my ass off when he said this. And yeah finnaly we landed in talking about religion...! Oh My Goooddd the discussion went on for 2hours and they have planned to continue it on thursday again. Engine and Mick each were talking about, i dont know exactly about religion is the base they were not trying to defend themself but they were talking talking and talking. Throughout the conversation engine almost smoked off 4 buds and when he took the 5th one, mick got really pissed off as he doesnt like the smoke, yeah they dint even leave that they were taking about why people are smoking. As in whole i was listening to these conversations and it was 5.30 on the clock so we moved biding goodbye to Engine as he's hungry and went on searching for hungry jacks which was just oppsite. Walked through a store grabing some bread and reached the station and hop'd on to a train, finally landed and here i am in the library. Most of the day seems to be fun but i am numb most of the time, dont know what i am thinking but thinking something deep.

Village Still Glowss !

Was bugged up the whole day, spending quick time in class ! Yeah beleive me it was quick with this gmail and orkut., oh i should be studing there...will try that tommorrow. started from college with few of my mates grabbed a drink and hop'd on the train which made sure that i continued the shiverring got from the class, On sunny days it makes sure that i sweat...uh ! After a day which i have no idea how it was, i moved to a local library, it has to be silent i suppose, i was pluged with rock music and trying to read the days daily....a fat white lady passing by, should be the attendant, other too can hear it ! goddam !!! she should get me a noise reduction headphones then ! Bugged up even there, moved to my friends place with a 10mins walk, sun was hitting straight at me, thinking wether to take the cap out of my bag or not....reached his house. Plunged myself into the couch and a laptop on my lap. I got a tamil movie which i am more eager to watch these days as i have no one to speak my own mothertounge. this movie is based on a village background, which depicts some boys who are playing khabadi a game which needs some people and a some sand nothing more, as it was said in the movie. from watching a part of the movie i relaised how thw people who live there are so soft natured and kind with their bully looks, particularly a scene struck me hard while a driver of a bus honking on a small boy who is grazing the goats in the mushy roads and swearing on him for it, but when a passenger tells him that his father has passed away recently and he was pushed to grazing, he was so moved that he apologizes to himself and everyday honks while passing by him to show a eneffuble relationship.


this is my ancestors village, took this picturfe when i was there last year, found that place like heaven compared to this Modernised Garbage called City.

Touch Me !

Hella Fellas ! after a long weekend just bugged up in the class thinking about what phone to buy. Atleast it keeps me occupied, i was planning to get an N95 until i saw this N97, newer version ! I am not much into touch phones but this one really impressed me, with a 32gigs of storage, 5mp cam and qwert keyboard it just made me say "wow" i made up my mind to pull one for my pocket. It was hoped to hit the stands in mid june ( i hope nokia makes no mistakes with this) would really apreciate if the poviders give this beauty in $49 cap.


Takes a glimpse of it ! But remember its mine !



Here comes my faculty taking a grave look at me writing blog in the class hour, i better keep going before she gives me some looks.